We are the Snyder family and ... we are different

This is the story of our journey to our daughter in Ethiopia. God is preparing our family for her and preparing her heart to come home to her family. We chose the difficult road of trusting and obeying God. It is worth every step!

Saturday, October 16, 2010

guilt

The Schwann's man came to our house this week and I bought a few delicious items from him. If you have ever bought it you know that it is NOT cheap but it is quite yummy. Anyway, my total was close to $30 and as I wrote the check I couldn't help but feel a wave of guilt rush over me. $30 on a few food items for my family to enjoy could be the money for a child to eat, go to school and get medicine for an entire month. Wow! Guilt! It physically made me feel sick to my stomach to think about it. You know that feeling in the pit of your stomach when you are nervous, scared or when you have done something wrong? Yes that awful feeling. Today the boys and I are going to sponsor a child. We are going to look online and decide from which organization we are going to pick. We have sponsored a child in the past, but I was not diligent about sending correspondance or extras. This time WILL be different. Whatever child we decide to sponsor will be no less a part of our family than the little girl we will be bringing home. My heart did not hurt for the children as it does now. It was something we did because we knew it was good and that we should, but my heart was not in it. This time things will be different. Not everyone can or wants to adopt a child, but you can sponsor a child, give to those in need, pray for them and help support others who are helping the children. Those who help are not saints, they are just sinners who are being obedient to what God already tells us to do.

On another note, there have been several posts on my blog giving thanks to God for answering prayers. He just keeps doing it. There are several prayer concerns on our yahoo group and God seems to be checking them off one by one. It really is such a testament to our faith in Him. God has also been answering small prayers for me. It's so funny because this week I was thinking about how much I really need to hold someone's baby. Just to comfort them and cuddle them. You know how that feels. Well I had forgotten that this week is MOPS and I work in the young two year old's room so Friday I got to go play with the dozen of two year olds. Now granted they aren't babies, but they are still cute and sometimes baby like. It must have been a tough morning to be two because almost half of them were criers that morning. Several times during the morning I had two in my arms as well as one on my leg and a couple just around me in case I put the two down and could pick up someone else. While I was at MOPS I received a phone call from a couple at church asking if I would watch their baby today. She is more than a year old now, but still definitely a baby. How good is our God to provide me with just what I needed. The bible tells us to ask...and ask I shall.

We got confirmation that the USCIS did get our paperwork on Tuesday as it was anticipated. Continue to pray that they will review it quickly and that we will get our I-171H back next week. It is the one piece of paper standing between us and DTE. Continue to pray that we will be DTE this month! Please pray for all the families that are travelling and will be travelling for their children. There is a friend of mine in Eastern Europe right now meeting their four year old boy with downs syndrome. She doesn't have as much money as she needs to stay there for the couple of weeks. If you are reading this blog please take a minute to go to her blog and donate at least $1. Many of you are adopting yourselves so I know money is tight, but we all have $1 that we can give to another momma who is trying to bring home her son. Thank you!
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3 comments:

Mel said...

Megan, first of all, thank you!! Next... being on this journey, learning about the orphans, and the way that they are treated in other countries first hand has given me such a different heart!! I have always had a heart for special needs children, and have always seen the commercials or the info-mercials about the starving children in other countries, etc. and it's gone straight over my head. Being on this journey to bring home our sweet little Timothy, and seeing so many others, still waiting, has made me realize, it's not just the starving children, it's all of the ones out there who are suffering... not enough food, or medicine, or someplace safe and warm to live... the ones waiting for a Mommy & Daddy... the ones that no one wants... It has changed me, in ways that I have a hard time explaining. We are so blessed... so blessed. And having wonderful friends and family who support us, and pray for us, and love us is such a gift from God. I can't wait to be back home and be able to help other families, and other children the way we have been helped in the past few months. I pray for your little girl, and for your family everyday. Thank you for all that you do... you are a blessing!!

jkseevers said...

excellent post, Megan. Thanks for being so transparent.
I'm going to check out your friend's blog right now!!

Katie

Susan said...

Thanks for sharing your struggles. I am the same. It is so hard and I think you have turned yours into something beautiful, sponsoring a child. That is a wonderful idea. Thanks for the post. I like how you described those that help as "sinners being obedient to God." True words and a great description. Caring for orphans is obedience. Thanks