We are the Snyder family and ... we are different

This is the story of our journey to our daughter in Ethiopia. God is preparing our family for her and preparing her heart to come home to her family. We chose the difficult road of trusting and obeying God. It is worth every step!

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

being separated

I've gone through a lot of emotional ups and downs through the course of this adoption and while we were waiting to pass court it was definitely a down time, especially when we thought we had passed and didn't.  I discovered why it had been such a low time.  Not  only was it because I was missing our daughter but also because I was feeling pulled away from my Lord.  Through this process God has given me many reminders and glimpses as to what is going on.  He has given me messages of being patient and peaceful, being humble and glimpses of what's to come.  During the past couple of weeks before passing court I couldn't feel any of that.  I was praying and praying and praying but I wasn't hearing anything from God.  That was the most upsetting thing of all.  That was the reason for my pain, for my confusion, for my grief.  I was apart from my Heavenly Father and I did not know where to find Him, I felt lost.  This week one of our fellow adoptive mommas posted this on our fb page :

...I got great encouragement from today's entry in the devotional by Sarah Young called Jesus Calling..."I, THE CREATOR OF THE UNIVERSE, am with you and for you. What more could you need? When you feel some lack it is because you you are not connecting with me at a deep level. I offer abundant life;your part is to trust ME, refusing to worry about anything. It is not so much adverse events that make you anxious as it is your thoughts about those events. Your mind engages in efforts to take control of a situation, to bring about the result you desire. Your thoughts close in on the problem like ravenous wolves. Determined to make things go your way, you forget that I AM in control of your life. The only remedy is to switch your focus from the problem to MY PRESENCE. Stop all your striving and watch to see what I will do. I AM THE LORD.". Romans 8:31-32, Micah 7:7.

What a great reminder.  It is not our circumstances that define who we are, it is knowing that Christ Jesus is our path and when we focus on Him nothing else matters.  When we are deeply connected to Him we will not feel lost or broken but whole in His strength.
Praying for the families that will be leaving for Ethiopia this weekend to bring their children home next week.  Hopefully our paperwork has made it there and we will be submitted to embassy soon.  Thanking God for giving me the peace of waiting.


Debb said...

I just LOVE that devotion book! Writing a post about today's read as well! Perfect timing! I loved reading it here too!!!!! Let's cling to HIM together!!!!!